Friday, June 17, 2011

Oh my gosh...

Why haven't I been posting on here in like forever?

Well, basically because since March we have sorta put the baby making on hold. We did try once in May...but here is the kicker...CS aka the wifey actually was the one that tried. And then I got all weird and crazy and was like, look I want to have a baby just as badly as you do, but I am the most methodical person on the face of the earth and switching things up like this sorta screws with me. AND...using the same donor with you trying to get pregnant makes me feel like if you did get pregnant that the baby would be the most Latino crazy child ever and I would not be reflected in the baby at all.*

 I felt that way because CS was the one to pick our donor, so even if she wasn't the one getting pregnant at least she could feel that she saw herself in the baby because she picked the donor (who she refers to as a gay male version of herself). So I had a mini breakdown and we are on pause. Our KD went for another STI/D check up this week and we are waiting for the results, so if he is clean (as is the expectation) we will begin trying again with me. CS has a OB/GYN appt with my doctor set up for the early fall (because apparently she is super popular and it is super hard to get an appt with her). I think that the plan currently is that once she gets all checked out that if I am still not pregnant by then that we will both start trying. Me with the KD and her with a sperm donor through a sperm bank...so any recommendations for sperm banks would be great!

So that is where we are at...hopefully my next post will be sooner than this one was.

Ok, I gotta go pretend to work.

*Not crazy bc it would be 100% latino, but crazy bc CS and our KD are like the same person: no inhibitions, risk taking fools that want to party all night long and can never even imagine a moment of boredom bc they fill ever second of their lives with glitter.